It’s one of those times when I start feel useless again.
All my life I feel like I have been given so much potential but either something [inside] always holds me back or I just never really applied myself. It’s like I’ve literally kept myself mediocre when I could be something more, which is hella embarrassing to admit out loud. But it is what it is.
I wonder if there is a way to snap me out of this sticky mess I’ve made for myself. There’s so much more I want to do, to be, to have. And I know I have the tools, all I really need is to get off my ass and actually do something. But it is surprisingly easier said than done. I am my own worst enemy.
That said, does this mean I need therapy? I have never been officially diagnosed or anything, but I have always felt like I am on the spectrum somewhat. All those stuff I see about “signs” or “symptoms” of being neurodivergent almost always hits me right on the nose. Would it change things for the better if I knew for sure?
