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Newly-born Adult

July 28, 2020
Small

Back in elementary, I was usually one of the smallest and thinnest girls in class. By puberty and through adulthood though, the few extra inches of height (and waist) deemed me within the normal or average. I was neither the smallest nor the biggest anywhere; I was just about right, if you will.

Then I came here to the US. My height did not change (though my weight did fluctuate a little), but I suddenly felt small and even delicate😅 Like, even the Small-sized clothes here fit awkwardly on my short frame. When looking for pants or dresses, I now have to consider the length, something which I have never really done before. Now my new clothes have “allowances for growth” just like a freakin’ kid’s. Oh, and yes, even the kid-sized shoes here fit me. 🤣

It seems I regressed back to being a kid. As a picky eater, my staple food is pizza, with cookies and/or candies a close second. I am enjoying Hot Pockets, and I can barely finish a full serving of food at any restaurant. My husband always mock-offers to buy me Dino nuggets in the grocery. Not just once has he kidded that me being here is pretty much like having a kid in the house. 🤣

Immigrant Thoughts

You could say I am like a newly-born adult here in the US, strange as that sounds. I suppose most immigrants feel the same way, even if the size thing is not always applicable. That feeling of newness.. an otherness that can be quite alienating. Even as I have traveled the same stretch of road going to the grocery nearly every week, sometimes during the drive, I still find myself looking out the window and marveling at my strange new surroundings. So much tall trees, strange trees, some of which I have never seen back home.. in the Philippines.

But that’s not exactly right. My home is now here in the US.. at least for the foreseeable future. So before I left the Philippines, I had a tattoo as a souvenir and reminder of where I came from:

TAAL tattoo in BaybayinPhoto from Sirens and Sorciere Tattoo Studio

The tattoo is TAAL in Baybayin, an old Philippine alphabet. Taal is my hometown, and where majority of my extended family resides. Taal is also the small but terrible the volcano that erupted earlier this year, necessitating my relatives to evacuate to safety. Thankfully, our house is a few towns farther from Taal, and so our closest kin stayed with us for weeks. It was a tight squeeze, and a lot of adjustments, but we made it work. The experience brought us all closer, veritable silver lining in that bleak situation. So this seemingly simple tattoo holds a whole lot of significance for me.

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Black Dr. Martens Combat Boots

July 20, 2020
Dr. Martens Combs Kids

So my new Docs arrived an hour ago and I am one happy girl! I have always wanted black Docs, but didn’t really want to spend too much. Those things can be hella expensive (especially when you’re unemployed like me right now). But I still looked and looked anyway, and found a cheaper alternative at the kids’ section. 😆 And here they are, my Dr. Martens (Kid’s Collection) Combs! Me and my tiny-ass feet.. 🤣

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Straight-Out Brain Dump

July 17, 2020

It’s a little past 2 in the morning, I can’t sleep and I made a haphazard vodka cranberry drink to keep me company. I still have more than half the laptop’s battery charge so I should be good for a little more thoughts before I need to either lug this 17-inch monstrosity back upstairs or try to untangle its power cord from the veritable web of cables and chargers in our room and bring it down here to the kitchen. Yey, me.

These past coupla days have been hard. With this covid situation, it’s still not a good idea to go out and about. Not that I can really go out in the first place, since I have nowhere to go anyway. Sucks either way. So far the best thing I’ve found is sitting on the back deck with my Kindle and a huge cup of coffee. With the birds chirping in the background and the wind-chimes singing in the cool breeze, I can almost pretend that I have some semblance of peace and freedom. Almost.

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Life so far

April 2, 2020
040120 Life so far

That photo pretty much sums up my situation right now: me in my comfy pj’s, semi-neglected pedicure and slippers, taking in the cold outside, and straddling the line between light and dark..

So I have been here for a coupla weeks now, stuck at home to avoid getting coronavirus. Thankfully (or not), he is stuck at home as well since his workplace is currently closed. So we’re together pretty much 24/7;  it means we can hug or kiss or goof around whenever we feel like it. So far we’re like a coupla kids playing house. 🤣 It hasn’t driven any of us crazy (or crazier) so I guess that’s a good thing. 😁

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Hello America!

March 21, 2020
hello america

It’s been some time since my last update. Much has happened, not the least of which is my big move from the Philippines to the United States of America. The journey was not without its share of delays and setbacks, but I got here just fine so I guess it all worked out somehow. And just in time too, as the coronavirus disease has borders locking down left and right.

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